For this assignment we were asked to create a character and then develop them into an imaginative and engaging piece of theatre, applying the methods of Stanislavsky to create our final piece. We firstly observed, then developed and imagined and then performed our monologue.
Initially, in my observation stage, I was drawn towards a girl who I found interesting. She was around 19 years old, an independant person with a style of dress that was bold and a bit edgy. She had dyed blue hair and piercings. She was on her own in the environment but was talking with someone on the phone. However, when I came to begin the process of trying to inhabit her as a character and develop my material I found it hard. I couldn’t seem to make the step away from myself into becoming her and imagining what she might be thinking. This may have been because we were already too similar ( young female ) and so I couldn’t find enough difference to get hold of and develop. I struggled with this for a few days until I realised that I needed to choose a character who was a bigger step away from me.
To overcome this problem I decided to imagine what this character would be like in 30 or 40 years. I tried to think about what struggles she might face in her life. This led me to imagine her as a young Grandmother and be living a not so happy, rather lonely old age. I wanted to make a piece about her looking back on her life through her different family members, almost like a cast of characters.
I decided to portray this idea through a visual metaphor. I embodied this by creating a physical washing line in the space hung with different sizes, styles and types of garments which served several functions; practical, visual and narrative.
I entered the space with an armful of washing which I dumped on the floor by the pre- prepared line. Although it looked messy and casual, the washing was prepared in the right order and as I performed my monologue I took each individual garment and pegged it on the line. Each time this reflected the person in my life I was talking about and also the relationship between the people in my life. By the end of the monologue the audience was left with the story of my life visually laid out. This then remained as I left the stage as a memory or trace of my life.
The growing line of washing also evolved as a set whilst I was performing the piece, giving the audience something to observe as it developed whilst also listening to me talk. When writing the script my intention was to be fairly minimal with what I said, as the washing line images would complete the story and create greater depth to the meaning, allowing the audience to infer further personal histories, emotions and narrative. Examples of this are when I speak about my daughter having loads of kids and it is noisy when they come to stay. For this moment I peg several odd socks on the line all of a small size. This suggests many
chaotic children of a young age which I don’t need to say in the dialogue. Later I hang a small boys blue T shirt followed by a similar but large mans T shirt. I say that my son died aged 3 and that this broke his Dad. The similarity of the 2 T shirts suggests they were close as a father and son with matching personalities. This then makes the death even more cruel. The Dad’s T shirt also makes him seem to be a young Dad which we can imagine means the death of a child is even more shocking for him to recover from.
The washing line also provided me with a physical task to complete whilst acting. As a performer with less acting experience I was keen to keep my acting natural and realistic. I found that the job of hanging washing prevented me from over acting or being over emotional. I had a task to complete that I had to concentrate on and it kept me grounded and quite relaxed.
I found the task of developing, writing and performing a monologue challenging. I feel like I have learnt a lot about myself, my strengths and my approach and also what I am wary of.
I found that when I over complicated the written script I lost the natural quality. I found instead that when I kept each spoken part more sparse and allowed for silence and pauses then the visuals filled in the gaps. This helped to keep the piece feeling simple and direct and not over theatrical. I was really pleased that the monologue ended up having some funny parts as well as a very sad section.
I also learnt that good observation is key. I think I rushed this part, choosing the first person that I was drawn to. Perhaps if I had observed more closely at the start and thought harder about my choices then I wouldn’t have got stuck in the process.
I have also learnt about myself that I am more comfortable acting in a natural way at the moment. Being supported by the props gave me more confidence to perform and also confidence to be quiet on stage, not filling every moment with dialogue. I think it also kept my pace steady without rushing. I could only go as fast as the washing was being hung.
I tried to embody Stanislavsky’s philosophy of “ living truthfully in imaginary circumstances” by being direct and natural in a made up setting. I think my monologue showed a vulnerable person in a private, domestic situation which is the “public solitude” that Stanislavsky describes. I tried to be “truthful” in that the character completely believed her story and was real in the world that she inhabited. Her truth was real to her and hopefully it came across to the audience.
I enjoyed developing and performing the monologue even though I found it a challenge to achieve.